The past three weeks or so have been depressing. I've spent them getting sucked into the mundanity of a limping yet potentially lucrative business and enduring the resultant dissatisfaction of realizing how much time and potential has been wasted. The greatest conflict I have at this point in time is deciding whether or not I should jump off this sinking ship; throw the captain emeritus out with the bath water and keep going; or go down with it knowing that I have the life jacket to keep me buoyant which is my education, intellect, and ambition.
I've also grown a lot more spiritual in the past few weeks. Leaning not to my own understanding (as cliche as it sounds) and trusting the work of the invisible hand to reveal the doors of destiny.
When I am presented with these choices and am able to appreciate what each represents, will I be selfish and make the decision/s that benefit me the most, or will I continue to take the easy route in the interest of preserving the status quo, despite my discomfort with it?
My spirit is restless and despite being exhausted I cannot sleep.
I'll ponder away and hopefully reach some sort of epiphany before collapsing from fatigue and missing the lunar eclipse that apparently has me on edge tonight.
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Do you people have a facebook fan page? I looked for one on twitter but could not discover one, I would really like to become a fan!
Sorry no FB or twitter page. Just my personal pages o both sites
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